God Loves Me

Me:  Howdy Prodigal!

Prodigal:  I was just thinking of you.

Me:  Well, here I am.

Prodigal:  Are you going to share?

Me:  Of course.

 

I have the privilege to hear people’s stories at times and God uses these stories to encourage me.  Today with her permission, I will share some of the story of Sharon.

Sharon had a hard life.  It was tough as a child because instead of parents who loved most of the time, these parents hurt deeply at times.  Sharon does know the love and salvation of Jesus and that has made all the difference.

Sharon has attempted suicide and has been hospitalized 24 times.  One of these attempts was so serious that the paramedics pronounced her dead when they arrived at her apartment.  They were able to revive her and she then recovered in the hospital.

Sharon told me of a time when God finally was able to show her that He loved her.  She then wrote this right after it became real that she was loved.

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I have begun to believe that “Jesus”-“God” loves me.  Its not how much I love Him, it’s how much He loves me.  It seems that His love is so magnificent it is almost unbearable.  The pain in knowing His love knocks my body to my core.

Is this the great awakening I came here for?  I had it all backwards.  I knew how much I loved Him, I didn’t know how much He loves me.  There is no struggle.  There is only God’s love.

My first memory is singing praises to Jesus.  I was proud.  My major adversity has been my pride and arrogance.

I had to fall.  I’ve lived a long life in order to come to my knee’s and want to fall on my face with the power, the knowledge of His grace and His love for me.

A song is playing on my radio.  Jesus saves “yes” Jesus saves.  He also is the greatest love I have or ever will have.

Wow, I can barely contain the emotions I am having!  Embrace the pain within.  I am alive!  I am loved! I am here!  He is with me always! 

I wanted love from human beings.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been told “I’m sorry I can’t love you the way you need to be loved.  It wasn’t that they didn’t want to, it was that they didn’t have the love in them.

God loves me the way I need to be loved.  I feel it all over.  In every fiber of my being.

This love is for everyone.

This is God’s world!  Right Now!  Maybe from the beginning of time, mankind has been running from the pain of letting go.  The world does not belong to us.  I tried to make it mine.

I realize that every time I think I have the answer, I turn on the TV, read an article in the magazine.  I realize that the answer has already been found.  It’s already been done.

It’s Jesus.

Sharon Hollinrake

 

Psalm 18:1

I love you, O LORD, my strength.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

 

Sharon has not attempted suicide since this letter.  She has not been hospitalized either.

You Make Me Happy

 

Me: Wait up Prodigal, you make a runaway horse look like a tired turtle.

Prodigal:  I am just happy to be out on a wonderful day like this, hiking in the woods.

Me:  Me too, I am glad you are with me.

 

This come Slaying the Giants in your Life by David Jeremiah

 

This is the truth I come to see with more clarity each passing year.  We worry so much about appearances; God worries so little about them.  This is another subject Jesus returned to constantly:  the superficiality of the surface; the seriousness of the heart.  We’re all wrapped up in public perception, but God’s steady gaze never wavers from the heart.  God loves us most deeply when we drop the pretenses, forget our all-important facades, and come to Him not like the proud Pharisee but like the trembling tax collector:  “Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner!”

 

Sometimes people get it wrong.  They look at us and think one thing and even though they don’t know they act.  I know your heart.  I know that it hurts to be misunderstood.  I know that God sees you with love.  You may not make everybody happy today, but you make me happy.

 

For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen.  For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal

2 Corinthians 4:17-18

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

A Circle

 

Me:  Hot dang, ain’t you in full feather today!

Prodigal:  Thank you, I am dressing up for a change.

Me:  Have fun and I will leave you with a small poem.

 

He drew a circle that shut me out–

Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout.

But Love and I had the wit to win;

We drew a circle that took him in!

Author unknown

 

1 Corinthians 15:10

But by the grace of God I am what I am:  and his grace which was bestowed upon me was not in vain; but I labored more abundantly than they all: yet not I , but the grace of God which was with me.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

Uplifting Words

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Prodigal:  Today, I brought my friend.  She has been listening to me talk about some of what you say and has decided that she would like to hear something encouraging today.

 

Me:  Well thank you!  I try to let the Lord guide me with what I should say so I do not say the wrong thing.  A lot of prayer is put into the words I write and I say.

 

Prodigal:  Do you have something to share today?

 

This is something that really touched my heart.  It comes from the book A Woman of Strength by Neva Coyle

 

The weary are everywhere.  People struggling with life need encouragement.  It’s up to us to reach out to such people with an uplifting word or deed of hope and help.  And I do; sometimes I do too much.

You see, an untaught tongue, even when attempting to give a word of encouragement, can get in God’s way of doing what he wants to do in someone else’s life.  It’s true.  Only when I seek him for his guidance can I make sure a word or deed meant to encourage is not only needed, but appropriate and in keeping with God’s will.

 

 

What is my point with all this.  Please watch your tongue.  Even if you think it sounds good at the moment.  Pray first.  You have no idea what is in the other person’s heart.  We are all different and we have different paths to take.  We can encourage each other but it just has to be encouraged by the Holy Spirit.

 

There is one whose rash words are like sword thrusts, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.  Proverbs 12:18

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

wwwfaithincounseling.org

God Sees Me

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Me;  What are you doing Prodigal?

Prodigal:  I am just sending a quick email.  There it is finished now I can talk to you.

Me:  I was reading a letter that was sent a long time before email was every around.

Prodigal:  Lets hear it, because it might bring us some wisdom.

 

This is a letter that Susanna Wesley wrote to her eldest son Samuel.  She is the mother of John Wesley who founded the Methodists.

 

Consider well what a separation from the world, what purity, what devotion, what exemplary virtue, are required in those who are to guide others to glory…I would advice you to arrange your affairs by a certain method, by means you will learn to improve every precious moment….Begin and end the day with Him who is the Alpha and Omega, and if you really experience what it is to love God, you will redeem all the time you can for His more immediate service.

Endeavor to act upon principle and do not live like the rest of mankind, who past through the world like straws upon a river, which are carried which way the stream or wind drive them….Get as deep an impression on your mind as is possible of the constant presence of the great and holy God.  He is about our beds and about our paths and spies out  all our ways.  Whenever you are tempted to the commission of any sin, or the omission of any duty, pause and say to yourself “What am I about do?  God sees me.”

 

Do not forget God sees not only what you are doing, He always sees your heart and you have to make sure it is aligned with God’s will.

 

Proverbs 8:13

The fear of the LORD is hatred of evil.  Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

Perfect Wisdom

 

Prodigal:  WISDOM, GET YOUR WISDOM!

Me:  Prodigal are you trying to give away advice?

Prodigal:  Yes, I was reading the peanuts cartoon and thought I could be like Lucy.

Me:  I will share with you what I have been reading about wisdom.

 

This comes from the book Living on the Ragged Edge by Charles Swindoll

 

Wisdom among other things, is the ability to devise perfect ends and to achieve those ends by the most perfect means.  It sees the end from the beginning, so there can be no need to guess or conjecture.  Wisdom sees everything in focus, each in proper relation to all, and is thus able to work toward predestined goals with flawless precision.

All God’s acts are done in perfect wisdom, first for His own glory, and then for the highest good of the greatest number for the longest time.  And all His acts are as pure as they are wise and pure.  Not only could His acts not be better done:  a better way to do them could not be imagined.  An infinitely wise God must work in a manner not to be improved upon by finite creatures.

 

Why do we wake up and try to avoid God’s direction then.  If we really believe God is full of perfect wisdom then we need to move toward trustful obedience in that direction.

 

Mark 8:36

For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul?

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

Encourage Relationship

Me:  Prodigal, are you enjoying your time with Brady?

Prodigal:  Yes, we are becoming very close right now.

Me:  I can see that, that ties into what I was reading about relationships.

 

This is from the book Dropping Your Guard by Charles Swindoll

 

Unguarded, open relationships within the body of Christ are just as important as the nourishing, accurate dispensing of scriptural truth.  We need both.  There must be meaningful fellowship, not just scholarship.  To have one without the other results in an unbalanced and unhealthy church.

 

I long for this balance in my life and we all need to make sure we have this balance also.  Maybe we should pray and ask God how we can work balance of this in our life.

 

Deuteronomy 5:12

Observe the Sabbath day, to keep it holy, as the Lord your God commanded you.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

 

A Man

 

Me:  Howdy Prodigal!

Prodigal:  I am ready to hear a story because it has been a long week.

Me:  Well maybe this will help.

 

How had his life gotten to this point?  It was morning.  The sun had risen and the chill of the night before was still in the area.  He used to have something to hope for.  He was not the first born son but the second.  Still his father had enough goats to sustain his four sons.  His father had been prosperous in his life.  He would be given enough to be able to make something of his life, if  he had a plan and he worked hard for it.  As he grew into adulthood he did work toward a life that he hoped would bring him a good life.  He watched after his flock of goats and they began to grow and he slowly was able to have some things of his own.  He had even been able to marry a kind, pretty woman that his family had known all their lives.  She was shy sometimes but he knew that she loved him.

So life had started out well.  He had a wonderful wife and had enough to sustain himself and the beginning of a family.  So why on this morning was he surround by these other guys.  Why was his life without hope?

He will never forget that day.  He had been married for a year.  Life was going well.  He woke up and in the morning light he looked at his left hand.  What was that small red spot?  Where did it come from?  The next day he took  the longest bath he had every had.  He was determined to get rid of this spot.  By the end of the week though, he knew in his heart what this was.  He had what was worse than death, he had leprosy.  He could have hid it longer.  He could have tried to enjoy the last days with his wonderful wife.  He loved her too much.  He wanted to give her a chance to remarry while she was still young.

He prepared some clothes, a little bit of food, and then said goodbye to his loved ones forever.  He left the village in  Samaria that he had known his whole life.  He did not want to be close enough where is love ones would feel sadness or regret if they saw him.  He did not want their stares of pity.

That was 10 years ago.  He had met two men who had leprosy and decided to stay with them.  At least he could have some company.  Over time different men would come and go.  Now as he looked around and there was 10 of them.  He did not really know the men that he was with.  He had closed himself off emotionally that day he had left his wife and his family.  Why try to make connections even among lepers?  They would die or move on to another area one by one.

He did like to stay close by though for protection.  There was protection in numbers.  At least no one would try and gain up on a group of lepers.  If he was alone then they may hurl rocks with insults and he could truly be hurt and then would probably surely die on the streets.  Here at least he knew if he died then one of the other lepers would move his body to another spot and attempt to bury him in a shallow grave.  This was at least how they saw each other.  We can at least give each other the respect of a burial.

He had first learned of this code of respect when he had woke up one morning to find Jude not alive.  Quietly the lepers around him started the work of carrying him to another spot and burying him.  This was how he had found himself with ten others who were not friends but did not leave him completely alone in the world.

After he finished his thoughts he looked out and noticed a small group of men that had started to approach them.  It was then that some of the lepers started to cry out.  Jesus, Master, have mercy on us.  Before he knew it his voice was crying the same thing.  He did not know who this Jesus was but deep inside of him, he knew that he started to have a feeling that he had almost forgot existed.  That feeling was hope.  How could this man, suddenly give him hope?

Then he heard one man answer in the a calm but strong voice, “Go show yourselves unto the priests.”  When he heard the command, their was a feeling of peace that washed over him that he had never felt before.  He turned to look at the man named Jesus.  He immediately saw love and compassion in eyes that seemed to know everything about him.

Without even thinking he started turning to walk toward the priests and it was then that some of the other men started shouting and laughing.  They cried “we are healed!” and started running in so many different directions toward town.

After watching them run off, I looked down and my arm was completely healed.  I quickly looked at my other arm, and it was healed.  I knew then that this man was God.  He was the one who created me.  As my soul soaked up this new realization, my body was moving before I could even think.  I turned back and loudly proclaimed,” God goes the glory for my creation and my healing”.  I continued on “God is most worthy to be worshipped.”  I did know that my lips could not stop from voicing worship of who Jesus was.  I then fell down on my face and voicing over and over again thanks be to God!

Jesus then asked me “Were there not ten cleansed? but where are the nine?  There are not found that returned to give glory to God, save this stranger.  And then he said unto me.  Arise go thy way thy faith hath made thee whole.

I stood up and immediately I knew that it was not my physically miracle that had changed me the most but it was the inner miracle.  I knew now that Jesus was the son of God and that He was there to save my soul.  He had just given me that as he spoke his last words to me.  I had peace, hope, joy and a filling of being complete that I had never experienced before.

It was still morning as I watched him walk away, but it was a morning that I would keep playing over in my mind everyday as long as I live.  I also knew that I would crave to share my story of Jesus with anyone who would want to hear.

Luke 17

11 And it came to pass, as he went to Jerusalem, that he passed through the midst of Samaria and Galilee.

12 And as he entered into a certain village, there met him ten men that were lepers, which stood afar off:

13 And they lifted up their voices, and said, Jesus, Master, have mercy on us.

14 And when he saw them, he said unto them, Go shew yourselves unto the priests. And it came to pass, that, as they went, they were cleansed.

15 And one of them, when he saw that he was healed, turned back, and with a loud voice glorified God,

16 And fell down on his face at his feet, giving him thanks: and he was a Samaritan.

17 And Jesus answering said, Were there not ten cleansed? but where are the nine?

18 There are not found that returned to give glory to God, save this stranger.

19 And he said unto him, Arise, go thy way: thy faith hath made thee whole.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

Live in the Spirit

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Prodigal:  This fountain is so beautiful!

Me:  The sound of it is very peaceful and relaxing.

Prodigal:   I think it is the perfect setting for our next discussion.

 

This comes from the book Overcoming Spiritual Blindness by Dr. James Gills

Complete submission to God allows for very different attitudes to take root in our hearts.  We must genuinely learn to live in the Spirit, as “sons of God,”  as the Scriptures declare:  “For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, “Abba, Father”(Rom. 8:14-15).  As we mature in our faith, and progress toward a fuller expression of it we will grow to desire communion with God more than we desire our sin.  Our new freedom creates more hunger for God and counteracts the desire to sin.

 

What would you say to me O Lord if you could speak into my heart this very moment?  I know that the words would be full of compassion and love like no other person could ever give me.  I know your words would reach to the very depths of my heart.  I would over flow with the understanding that I am loved.  I would have a peace that blocks out all fears from the world.  I would have a hope that crowds out the shouts of discouragement.  I would know that I am special in your eyes when others look pass me and through me.  I would know Lord if you could speak to me this very moment that I would cry out Abba Father.

 

Ephesians 4:1

I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

Squirrel

 

Me:  What are you doing in that tree?

Prodigal:  I am looking for a squirrel, I just saw one but they are pretty fast.

Me:  They sure are,  I can share a story that I think will make you laugh.

 

This is from the book Parenting From Surviving to Thriving by Charles Swindoll

 

Many years ago, my good friend Ron Demolar operated a camp called Ponderosa at Mount Hermon in California, where he entertained middle-school kids from churches all over.  Now, Ron’s authentic to the core—he absolutely cannot stand clichéd Christianity and has a very mischievous sense of humor.  He told me about one particular year and how he decided to set the tone for the rest of the week.

He said, “All these kids showed up and were so busy impressing each other with their spirituality that I thought I would break the ice with some simple little questions.”  He started with, “Hey kids, what’s gray, runs real fast, has a big bushy tail, climbs trees, and hides nuts for the winter?”

The place was quieter than a room full of nuns.  The kids just sat and stared.  So he asked again, “Come on…what’s gray, runs real fast, has a big bushy tail, climbs, and hides nuts for the winter?”

Finally, a little girl sheepishly put up a hand.

“Yes, go ahead,”  He said.

The girl hesitated, then said, “I want to say a squirrel, but I’ll say Jesus Christ?”

 

Today do not try to impress others with knowledge.  Instead try to listen and see what God wants you to know in your heart.

 

Isaiah 58:6

This is the kind of fast I want.  I want you to remove the sinful chains, to tear away the ropes of the burdensome yoke, to set free the oppressed, and to break every burdensome yoke.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.faithincounseling.org

www.theprodigalpig.com