Growing Weary in the Waiting

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Me: Hi Prodigal, what a nice day it is to be outside.

Prodigal: Yes I agree, I am waiting to meet a friend, but the friend is running late today. I am tired of just sitting here to be honest.

Me: Sometimes I am not so good at waiting myself. At times I really am not good at waiting on the Lord.

Prodigal: Yes I have heard people talk about waiting on the Lord but what does that really mean?

Me: Let me share what I have read about the topic.

My friend Laurie and I were talking about waiting for the Lord one night. She had come up with this topic growing weary in the waiting. I started reading some and came up with something that Robert Raines wrote in To Kiss the Joy that I think can help explain how we feel.

It’s only when you have to that you get interested in what it might mean to wait for the Lord. Waiting is a matter of letting it happen to you rather than doing it to somebody else. It’s a matter of being receptive rather than aggressive, of making ready rather than taking action, of letting yourself be vulnerable rather than protecting and defending. You and I are used to running things and people, being at the controls, giving orders, managing events, ordering children around, until one day it doesn’t work any more. Suddenly a door is slammed, or the bottom falls out, and we are powerless to control our future. Our strength is threatened or destroyed. Our future is in jeopardy. It is then that we begin to cry out “You heavens, give me that patience, patience I need!” While we have our power, we don’t need to be patient. We can get along without self-knowledge; we can look with contempt upon the weak. When our power is taken from us, in humiliation we may begin to learn humility, to let things and people ripen at their own pace and not to manipulate or hurry them into change. When our power is taken from us, we may learn to respect the unfolding nature of events, to let it be, to let ourselves be, to let others be, to respect the fragility of another person enough to let them shape their own life and find their own fashion of rebirth. We may learn not to insist on our own way-like “I want it now, today, yesterday, my way”-but yield, to let the life process happen. We may learn to begin to trust the process, not to have to manage or control it, even to believe that it may work out better if many wills work together and somehow God’s purpose unfolds through the hidden coordination of it all.

Allowing someone to be them. Allowing God to be ruler. Allowing myself to let go. This all means waiting. What do you need to wait on today at this very minute? Who needs you to be patient? What would be so scary if we truly do just wait on the Lord? Do not let fear rule replace it with faith and allow God to show you how it will all unfold.

Psalm 27:14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.

Jennifer Van Allen,

Life Breaks Down

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Me: Howdy, Prodigal!

Prodigal: Howdy, How is it going?

Me: Good I see you have a friend today?

Prodigal: Yes this is a friend of mine, Mr. Frog. We have been just talking about this past week and some of the frustrations that have been going on.

Me: It is always good to have some one to lean on when it has been a tough week. I was reading this week and have an insert from Charles Swindoll’s book Dropping Your Guard. I would love to share it with you.

Prodigal: Please share it with me and Mr. Frog.

Life breaks down not so much because of the terrible things that happen to us. Life breaks down because so few good things have happened to us. Just a few along the way can be like branches we can cling to as we climb up a mountain trail. No matter how steep the scent, we can make it, if from time to time among the trail someone communicates to us that he or she loves us and therefore we are important.

What words of wisdom have been written here. A couple of years ago I was in a place where everything that could go wrong did go wrong and I was just hoping for one little break in my life that was good. I was so weary, all I could do was try to make it through the day. What I learned though was to stop focusing on if my life has good breaks or bad breaks. Also I had to stop counting how many good or bad breaks I had. I use to compare and say John over here had three good things and he told me he only prayed for ten minutes. I had four bad things and I prayed for an hour. I was miserable in my comparison game. As I climbed through my journey, I turned to the creator of the journey. He showed me when I was alone, that God loved me and he was not going to let me fall. God showed me that I am important to him. God showed me that he was thinking of me 2000 years ago on a cross before my family or friends even were alive. When you really realize that God loves you then it will always change the way the journey looks.

Elijah was alone in the wilderness but God was with him to show him his love. God is telling you that he will shower you with his love. It may not be the way we image it but you are not alone.

I Kings 19:7
And the angel of the Lord came again the second time, and touched him, and said, Arise and eat; because the journey is too great for thee

Jennifer Van Allen

Faith In Counseling
5500 1st avenue north
St. Petersburg, FL 33710