Out of Love

Me:  Are you ready for the day?

Prodigal:  Yes, but need the heart of God to go with me today.

Me:  I can help you with that.

This is from the book Rx for Worry:  A Thankful Heart by James P. Gills, M.D.

We surrender to God, not out of duty, but out of love.   We love Him; we embrace Him with our whole being.  And we seek His presence in our lives.  We week an intimate relationship with Him.  God save us through His grace to make us like Jesus Christ, and He wants us to desire what He wants.

So the path of transformation must include fervent desire.  We must desire to be transformed; we must desire to be more Christ-like.  We can’t just know in our heads who Christ is and how to be like Him.  We must have desire in our hearts.  That fervency transforms us.  We love God and are in love with Him!  We’re overwhelmed with thanksgiving and joy because our hearts are filled with love for the Person of Jesus Christ.

Our focus and our love at times can be misunderstood as crazy and foolish but then again the bible is full of people that seemed crazy and foolish and it really worked out for them and it really glorified God!

And straightway coming up out of the water, he saw the heavens opened and the Spirit like a dove descending upon him.

Mark 1:10

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

Women Lovin’ Jesus

Prodigal: So we finished Chapter 1.

Me: Yes, and now on to a new chapter.

Prodigal: I am ready for a new chapter.

Me: Me too!

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Proverbs 2:1

My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you,

Jennifer Van Allen

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The Sabbath

Me:  Ready for church?

Prodigal:  Yes, it is that day of the week.

Me:  Maybe I can share first.

This is from the book  How Firm a Foundation:  A Gift of Jewish Wisdom for Christians and Jews by Rabbi Yechiel Eckstein

“How do we know that the duty of saving life supersedes the Sabbath?”  asks the Talmud.  Rabbi Jonathan ben Joseph said, “It is written in the Scriptures “You shall keep the sabbath, because it is holy for you’ (Exodus 31:14, emphasis added).  this implies that the sabbath is committed to you, not to the sabbath”.  The similarity between these ideas and Jesus’ keen awareness of , and probably entrenchment in, the pharisaic tradition and the sanctity of man over the Shabbat.

Jesus really did understand the law, so maybe He really did come to overcome the law.  So we do not have to live by the law today we just have to surrender to Jesus.

Galatians 1:12

For I neither received it of man, neither was I taught it, but by the revelation of Jesus Christ.

Jennifer Van Allen

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Power of Forgiveness

 

Me:  Are you having fun with Brady?

Prodigal:  I swear he is as limber as dishrags!

Me: Well enjoy your time as I share a story

 

This come from Christianity Today, January 7, 1983

 

I thought about her.  I dreamed about her.  I saw her in every woman I met.  Some had her name–Cathy.  Others had her deep-set blue eyes or curly dark hair.  Even the slightest resemblance turned by stomach into a knot.

Weeks, months, years passed.  Was I never to be free of this woman who had gone after my husband and then, following our divorce, married him?  I couldn’t go on like this.  The resentment guilt and anger drained the life out of everything I did.  I blamed myself.  I went into counseling.  I attended self-help classes, enrolled in seminars and workshops.  I read books.  I talked to anyone who would listen.  I ran.  I walked the beach.  I drove for miles to nowhere.  I screamed into my pillow at night.  I prayed.  I did everything I knew how to do.

Then one Saturday I was drawn to a daylong seminar on the healing power of forgiveness held at a church in my neighborhood.  The leader invited participants to close their eyes and locate someone in their lives they had not forgiven—for whatever reason, real or imagined.  Cathy.  There she was again, looming large in my mind’s eye.

Next, he asked us to look at whether or not we’d be willing to forgive that person.  My stomach churned, my hands perspired and my head throbbed.  I had to get out of that room, but something kept me in my seat.

How could I forgive a person like a Cathy?  She had not only hurt me, but she’d hurt my children.  So I turned by attention to other people in my life.  My mother.  She’d be easy to forgive.  Or my friend, Ann.  Or my former high school English teacher.  Anyone but Cathy.  But there was no escape.  The name, the image of her face, persisted.

Then a voice within gently asked, “Are you ready to let go of this?  To release her?   To forgive yourself, too?”

I turned hot, then cold.  I started to shake.  I was certain everyone around me could hear my heart beating.

Yes, I was willing.  I couldn’t hold on to my anger any longer.  It was killing me.  In that moment, an incredible shift occurred within me.  I simply let go.  I can’t describe it.  I don’t know what happened or what allowed me at that moment to do something I had resisted so doggedly.  All I know is that for the first time in four years I completely surrendered to the Holy Spirit.  I released my grip on Cathy, on my ex-husband, on myself.  I let go of the rage and resentment–just like that.

Within seconds, energy rushed through every cell of my body.  My mind became alert, my heart lightened.  Suddenly I realized that as long as I separated myself from even one person, I separated myself from God.  How self-righteous I had been.  How arrogant.  How judgmental.  How important it had been for me to be right, no matter what the cost.  And it had cost me plenty–my health, my spontaneity, my aliveness.

I had no idea what was next, but it didn’t matter.  That night I slept straight through until morning.  No dreams, No haunting face.  No reminders.

The following Monday, I walked into my office and wrote Cathy a letter.  The words spilled onto the page without effort.

“Dear Cathy,” I began. “On Saturday Morning..” and I proceeded to tell her what had occurred during the seminar.  I also told her how I had hated her for what she had done to my marriage and to my family, and, as a result, how I had denied both of us the healing power of forgiveness.  I apologized for my hateful thoughts.  I signed my name, slipped the letter into an envelope, and popped it in the mail, relieved and invigorated.

Two days later, the phone rang. “Karen?”

There was no mistaking the voice.

“It’s Cathy,” she said softly.

I was surprised that my stomach remained calm.  My hands were dry.  My voice was steady and sure.  I listened more than I talked–unusual for me.  I found myself actually interested in what she had to say.

Cathy thanked me for the letter and acknowledged my courage in writing it.  Then she told me how sorry she was–for everything.  She talked briefly about her regret, her sadness for me, for my children and more.  All I had ever wanted to hear from her, she said, that day.

As I replaced the receiver, another insight came to me.  I realized that as nice as it was to hear her words of apology, they didn’t really matter.  They paled in comparison to what God was teaching me.  Buried deep in the trauma of my divorce was the truth I had been looking for all my life without even knowing it.  No one can hurt me as long as I am in God’s hands.  Unless I allow it, no one can rob me of my joy.

 

1 John 4:14

And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

In This Time

 

Prodigal: I just finished repairing the door.

Me:  You still got a few more holes in your fence.

Prodigal:  Guess I can’t rest yet.

 

In time of suffering, then, pursue your course “looking unto Jesus,” the perfect Example of patience; and in the presence of Gethsemane and Calvary your sufferings will appear slight, and the calm face of the supreme Sufferer will impart patience and power unto you.  In seasons of despondency, when faith is weak and your spirit sinks within you, look unto Jesus, and the trust which he exercised and the destiny he attained, and let the bright example brace your heart with courage.  In times of exhaustion and weariness, when you faint because of the duties and difficulties of the way, look up to Jesus and his example will raise and strengthen your powerless hands and nerve your whole frame with new energy.  And in seasons of temptation look unto him who “resisted unto blood, striving against sin,” and yield not in the conflict, give no place to the tempter.  Let this be our attitude, “looking unto Jesus.”  Let the eye of the soul be fixed upon his as our Pattern and Helper; so shall we finish our course with joy, and “recieve the crown of glory that fadeth not away.”

 

W. Jones

 

1 Corinthians 16:13

Watch ye, stand fast in the faith, quit you like men, be strong.

 

Jennifer Van Allen

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Medical Crisis

Me:  What are you looking for?

Prodigal:  These tracks.

Me:  It’s as well hidden as Grannie’s snuffbox.

Prodigal:  Maybe I should come up with a different plan.

Me:  You might want to.

This is from Stick a Geranium in Your Hat and Be Happy by Barbara Johnson

The first blow come in 1966 when Bill and I were to be counselors for our church young people’s group at a conference ground in the San Gabriel Mountains.  Bill went on ahead that night, taking up supplies, and I planned to follow in my car after picking up a few last-minute items.  Our two older boys, Steve and Tim, were going to camp on the buss with their youth group, while Larry and Barney, our two younger boys, rode with me.  So off we went on our great adventure.

The dark mountain road hadn’t been used during the winter months, but it had been opened specifically for our church group to caravan up for a pre-Easter retreat.  About ten miles from the conference grounds, I came upon a man sprawled in the middle of the road, covered with blood and glass.  The only way I could tell it was Bill was by his clothes.  I knew other cars would be coming along soon after me, so I left one of the children to stay with Bill in the road while I drove ten miles farther to camp to get to a telephone and call an ambulance.

It took almost two hours to get Bill to a hospital, but some how he lived despite head injuries that left part of his brain exposed.  Apparently Bill’s car had hit some debris in the road and flipped over.

The events of the next couple of days are blurred for me, but I do remember a neurosurgeon and ophthalmologist calling me to their office to explain Bill’s condition.  The cranial nerves had been damaged, his vision was gone, and he was having seizures called “traumatic epilepsy.”  It was their opinion that he would never be able to function again within the family unit because he would be like a vegetable–without vision and without memory.

I couldn’t believe it.  Two days before we had been a happy family with four nice sons and no problems that I knew of.  Now I was suddenly responsible for caring for four boys—two teenagers and two under twelve.

When Bill was released from our local hospital, he couldn’t see and didn’t respond to any of us.  In fact, he hardly moved, and it seemed the doctors had been right–he would be like a vegetable.

I knew I had to initiate getting some financial help, so I called in a friend to come and stay with Bill while I went out to get us on any available programs.  First, I went to the office of Aid for the Blind; they gave Bill a free white cane.  That was a start.  Then I began seeking help in earnest from the Veterans Administration because Bill had been a lieutenant commander in the Navy and would be eligible for benefits.  I was told that he would have to be examined by their medical staff to determine his level of disability.

A few days later, I brought Bill in with me.  When the Veterans Administration medical committee examined him and his medical records, they agreed with the other doctors that he could never function normally again.  They told me that as soon as a bed opened up in the Sawtelle Veterans Hospital, he would be qualified to live there.  I didn’t tell them that wasn’t what I had in mind at all.

Next I contacted the Social Security office to initiate disability payments for Bill, as well as aid for our four boys and myself.  After making more visits to the Veterans Administration and Social Security to finalize payments, I also filed insurance claims because Bill had been ruled as permanently disabled.  Because we had a CalVet loan, the mortgage on the house was completely taken care of.  And our life insurance policy, which had a clause covering bodily injury, paid Bill $20,000 for his loss of vision–$10,000 for each eye.  As far as the insurance company was concerned, Bill would be blind for life, and he was due the full amount.

All this took time and energy.  It was a challenge just learning how to get on or collect from these agencies.  Just as I finished obtaining help from the Veterans Administration, Social Security Disability, Aid to the Blind, and our insurance policies…..GOD HEALED HIM!  It wasn’t’ an immediate healing, but during all those months while I was out trying to find financial help, Bill slowly regained his strength, and his sight miraculously returned, as well as his mental faculties.  One of the first signs that something good was happening was that Bill started asking me questions like, “Who are you?  Do you work here?”

Bill’s recovery was so complete that he started to consider going back to work.  Here I had all these lovely checks flowing in regularly, and now I had to figure out a way to GET OFF all these programs!  There were moments when I wondered why God couldn’t have healed Bill before I had done all that work.  If you think it’s hard getting ON these programs, you should try getting OFF!  You don’t just call the Veterans Administration and say, “Hello, remember my husband–the one you ruled as unrehabilitatable?  Well, he is no longer blind, his brain damage is gone, he is suffering no more seizures, and he is going back to work as an engineer.”

The Veterans Administration told me to bring Bill back to their offices and their doctors would decide whether or not he has to be taken off disability.  Our doctor went with us, and when Bill was examined by Veterans Administration doctors, they could hardly believe he was the same patient they had declared unrehabilitatble just a year before.  Our doctor, a vibrant Christian man, tried to explain that Bill’s restoration had been God’s touch on his life, something not easily understood by those who have not experienced God’s healing hand.

One agency that didn’t give Bill clearance was the Department of Motor Vehicles. It seems they take a dim view of giving you back your driver’s license when you’ve been blind and had brain damage, seizures, and the like.  When Bill went back to work, I had to drive him both ways every day because no one at the DMV wanted to give him a driver’s road test so he could get a license.

Bill wasn’t able to get his driver’s license reinstated for many months and, while driving him was a chore, our lives were beginning to seem more normal.  We felt that God is the one who specialized in taking broken bodies and fractured minds and putting them back together again.  The word restore means “to pop back into place,” and God had, indeed, brought restoration in those two years since the accident in 1966.

James 1:2-3

My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptation; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

Jennifer Van Allen

www.theprodigalpig.com

www.faithincounseling.org

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Prodigal: It has been awhile since a video!

Me: Yes, but now they are back.

Prodigal: I can’t wait to watch!

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Proverbs 1:33

But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.

Jennifer Van Allen

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Jesus and I

Me:  How is your time going with your friend?

Prodigal:  Her heart is colder than a tombstone in January.

Me:  Well, maybe this will make her heart softer.

Dan Crawford, the successor of the famous explorer, David Livingstone, was known for carrying a copy of the New Testament in the pocket of his jacket.  After he died, this poem was found penned on the flyleaf of his well-worn book:

I cannot do it alone!

The waves dash fast and high;

The fog comes chill around,

And the light goes out in the sky.

But know that we too shall win in the end–

Jesus and I.

Coward and wayward and weak,

I change with the changing sky;

Today so strong and brave,

Tomorrow too weak to fly.

But He never gives up,so we two shall win–

Jesus and I.

For the upright shall dwell in the land, and the perfect shall remain in it.

Proverbs 2:21

Jennifer Van Allen

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www.faithincounseling.org

A Labor of Love

Me:  Look at the statue of an Angel!

Prodigal:  Yes, I thought it was beautiful!

Me:  I have a story that you might like.

It seems an angel slipped out of heaven and spent the day roaming around the earth.  As the sun was setting, he decided he wanted to take along some mementos of his visit.  He noticed some lovely roses in a flower garden, plucked the rarest and most beautiful, and made a bouquet to take back to heaven.  Looking on a bit father, he saw a beautiful little baby smiling into its mother’s face.  The baby’s smile was even prettier than the bouquet of roses, so he took that, too.  He was about to leave when he saw the mother’s love pouring out like a gushing river toward the little baby in the cradle, and he said to himself, “Oh, that mother’s love is the prettiest thing I have seen on earth; I will carry that, too.”

He winged his way back to heaven, but just outside the pearly gates he decided to examine his mementos to see how well they had made the trip.  The flowers had withered, the baby’s smile had faded, but the mother’s love was still there in all its warmth and beauty.  He discarded the withered flowers and the faded smile, gathered all the hosts of heaven around him, and said, “Here’s the only thing I found on earth that would keep its beauty all the way to heaven–it is a mother’s love.”

author unknown

Psalm 144:9

I will sing a new song unto thee, O God: upon a psaltery and an instrument of ten strings will I sing praises unto thee.

Jennifer Van Allen

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The Beginning

Me:  I can see you are in the Christmas Spirit.

Prodigal:  Yes I am and I would like to hear a story that warms the heart.

Me:  I will try.

This is from the book  Where Angels Walk by Joan Wester Anderson

It was just past midnight on December 24, 1983.  The Midwest was shivering through a record-breaking cold spell, complete with gale-force winds and frozen water pipes.  And although our suburban Chicago household was filled with the snug sounds of a family at rest, I couldn’t be a part of them, not until our twenty-one-year old son pulled into the driveway.  At the moment, Tim and his two roommates were driving home for Christmas, their first trip back since they had moved East last May.  “Don’t worry, Mom,”  Tim had reassured me over the phone last night.  “We’re going to leave before dawn tomorrow and drive straight through.  We’ll be fine!”

Kids.  They do insane things.  Under normal circumstances, I figured, a Connecticut-to-Illinois trek ought to take about 18 hours.  But the weather had turned so dangerously cold that radio reports warned against venturing outdoors, even for a few moments.  And we had heard nothing from the travelers.  Distressed, I pictured them on a desolate road.  What if they ran into car problems or lost their way?  And if they had been delayed, why hadn’t Tim phoned?  Restlessly I paced and prayed in the familiar shorthand all mothers know:  God, send someone to help them.

By now, as I later learned, the trio had stopped briefly in Fort Wayne, Indiana, to deposit Don at his family home.  Common sense suggested that Tim and Jim stay the rest of the night and resume their trek in the morning.  But when does common sense prevail with invincible young adults?  There were only four driving hours left to reach home.  And although it was the coldest night in Midwest history and the highways were snowy and deserted, the two had started out again.

They had been traveling for only a few miles on a rural access road to the Indiana tollway, whey they noticed that the car’s engine seemed sluggish, lurching erratically and dying to ten or fifteen miles per hour.  Tim glances uneasily at Jim.  “Do not–” the radio announcer intoned,” repeat–do not venture outside tonight, friends.  There’s a record windchill of eighty below zero, which means that exposed skin will freeze in less than a minute.”  The car surged suddenly, then coughed and slowed again.

“Tim,” Jim spoke into the darkness, “were not going to stall here, are we?”  “We can’t,” Tim answered grimly as he pumped the accelerator.  “We’d die for sure.”

But instead of picking up speed, the engine sputtered, chugging and slowing again.  About a mile later, at the top of a small incline, the car crawled to a frozen stop.

Horrified, Tim and Jim looked at each other in the darkened interior.  They could see across the fields in every direction, but, incredibly, theirs was the only vehicle in view.  For the first time, they faced the fact that they were in enormous danger.  There was no traffic, no refuge ahead, not even a farmhouse light blinking in the distance.  It was as if they had landed on an alien, snow-covered planet.

And the appalling, unbelievable cold!  Never in Tim’s life had he experienced anything so intense.  They couldn’t run for help; he knew that now for sure.  He and Jim were young and strong, but even if shelter was only a short distance away, they couldn’t survive.  The temperature would kill them in a matter of minutes.

“Someone will come along soon,” Jim muttered, looking in every direction.  “They’re bound to.”

“I don’t think so,” Tim said.  “You heard the radio.  Everyone in the world is inside tonight–except us.”

“Then what are we going to do?”

“I don’t know.”  Tim tried starting the engine again, but the ignition key clicked hopelessly in the silence.  Bone-chilling cold had penetrated the car’s interior, and his feet were already growing numb.  Well, God, he prayed, echoing my own distant plea, You’re the only one who can help us now.

It seemed impossible to stay awake much longer….Then, as if they had already slipped into a dream they saw headlights flashing at the car’s left rear.  But that was impossible.  For they had seen no twin pinpricks of light in the distance, no hopeful approach.  Where had the vehicle come from?  Had they already died?

But no.  For, miraculously, someone was knocking on the driver’s side window.  “Need to be pulled?”  In disbelief they heard the muffled shout.  But it was true.  Their rescuer was driving a tow truck.

“Yes! Oh, yes, thanks!”  Quickly, the two conferred as the driver, saying nothing more, drove around to the front of the car and attached chains.  If there were no garages open at this hour, they would ask to take them back to Don’s house, where they could spend the rest of the night.

Swathed almost completely in a furry parka, hood and scarf up to his eyes, the driver nodded at their request but said nothing more.  He was calm, they noted as he climbed into his truck, seemingly unconcerned about the life-threatening circumstances in which he had found them.  Strange that he’s not curious about us, Tim mused, and isn’t even explaining where he came from or how he managed to approach without our seeing him…..And had there been lettering on the side of the truck?  Tim hadn’t noticed any.  He’s going to give us a big bill, on a night like this.  I’ll have to borrow some money from Don or his dad….But Tim was exhausted from the ordeal and gradually, as he leaned against the seat, his thoughts slipped away.

They passed two locked service stations, stopped to alert Don from a pay phone, and were soon towed back through the familiar Fort Wayne neighborhood.  Hushed, Christmas lights long since extinguished and families asleep, Don’s still seemed the most welcoming street they had ever been on.  The driver maneuvered carefully around the cul-de-sac and pulled up in front of Don’s house.  Numb with cold, Tim and Jim raced to the side door where Don was waiting, then tumbled into the blessedly warm kitchen, safe at last.

Don slammed the door against the icy blast.  “Hey, what happened?” he began, but Tim interrupted.

“The tow-truck driver, Don- I have to pay him.  I need to borrow–”

“Wait a minute.”  Don frowned, looking past his friends through the window.  “I don’t see any tow truck out there.”

Tim and Jim turned around.  There, parked alone at the curb, was Tim’s car.  There had been no sound in the crystal-clear night of its release from the chains, no door slam, no chug of an engine pulling away.  There had been no bill for Tim to pay, no receipt to sign, no farewell or “thank you” or “Merry Christmas….”  Stunned, Tim raced back down the driveway to the curb, but there were no taillights disappearing in the distance, no engine noise echoing through the silent streets, nothing at all to mark the two truck’s presence.

Then Tim saw the tire tracks traced in the windblown snowdrifts.  But there was only one set of marks ringing the cul-de-sac curve.  And they belonged to Tim’s car…..

Psalm 33:3

Sing to him a new song; play skillfully on the strings, with loud shouts.

Jennifer Van Allen

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www.faithincounseling.org